It wasn’t easy at all.

And you thought it was easy for me
to close my heart towards you.
You thought it was easy for me
to close my eyes towards dream.
You thought it was easy for me
to close my mind to your smile.
You thought it was so easy for me
to leave the place I called home.
Now my heart never opens up,
My nights pass in painful nightmare
being nearly sleepless.
Now I even stopped smiling, masking my tears in
monster like laughter, ungraceful, insincere.
Now I live in a fragile shell of aloneness,
having nowhere to return to.
I travelled a long way from that crossroad I left you,
Yet I didn’t find what I was looking for.
Did you, did you finally find peace?
Did you finally find it possible to believe in love?
Did you finally find a place you can return to?